INTERVIEWER: 'If not now, when? If not I, who?'
JACKIE: Something along those lines.
INTERVIEWER: I'm all ears.
JACKIE: Well... see, this is Hollywood, right? We all know about the sexism, racism, ageism. We know and we suck it up, because we also know we are in the business of the replaceable. You have a problem with this or with that? With that asshole or that cunt? You don't want to take your clothes off? You don't want to share credit? Take a pay cut? You had the audacity to speak up? Yeah, you are replaceable. I am replaceable. We are all replaceable. And when you are in Hollywood - you are reminded of that fact every single day.
So when a co-worker of yours, a colleague, a peer, a brain trust homey, drops the bomb of ageism at your feet - he is expecting you to suck it up like you always do. Expect you to melt inside and turn into the little useless little girl you once were. And HE - yes it's always a HE in these toxic environments - chooses to remind you of your age right when you feel on top of the world. Because a woman in her prime - cannot be PRIMAL. A woman in her prime is called crazy when she voices out her opinion. or worse - her feelings. A woman in her prime needs to be told 'sit your ass down and go back where you belong.' Stay terrified to get old and be replaced. So yeah, I figured 'if not now, then when and if not I then who' and called out that motherfucker right where HE belongs. Shamed him so he can go back to feeling like a little baby breastfeeding on his momma and knowing damn well who's boss. And that's, honey or baby or sweetie - is how your deal with pricks in Hollywood. You DON'T let them nail you. And if they prick you and you bleed? Take that blood and turn it into venom. Wrap that venom in a bow and a pretty dress and make it into art that will shake that status quo once and for all. In plain English? Write a tell-all book and find yourself sitting for an interview with the Barbara Walters of your time, while your ex colleague is wondering what the hell happened to his career. And that - to answer your question - is what it's like to be a woman in Hollywood. It's toxic as fuck, and you SWEETIE - are the cure.
In April 2020, while experiencing her first ever global pandemic, Tamar Pelzig pledged to write something every day, even if it's only a word, so she welcomed to the world a daily blog to keep her creative writing wheels rolling.
Header Art: Daniel Landerman