"Confidence is silent. Insecurities are loud."
When I first heard the above quote, I immediately thought of my high school years and other times in my life when I compensated for my lack of confidence by trying to appear super-confident; being vocal, opinionated, laughed along even when I didn't find things funny, carried myself with a power pose. But inside I was shaky, timid, unsure of myself, and deeply afraid of anyone picking up on that.
But high school aside, I now look at this quote and see it from a whole other perspective: How do confidence and the lack thereof sound to US in our heads.
Confidence is quiet like an inner knowing that I have to be very much at ease to hear, while insecurities and doubts are always screaming loud to make sure I hear them and tend to their worries. Meditation has helped me navigate around these very different sounds in my head and so does practicing a healthy mindset and inner talk. It's a seesaw, a game of chess, an up or down dynamic that is probably always going to be a practice and never fully achieved...
In April 2020, while experiencing her first ever global pandemic, Tamar Pelzig pledged to write something every day, even if it's only a word, so she welcomed to the world a daily blog to keep her creative writing wheels rolling.
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