HEART: Boom boom. Boom boom. Boom boom.
SOUL: I am sensing something is up with you, Heart.
BRAIN: Affirmative. Beat is up on my radar as well.
HEART: You are correct, you too... I am, boom boom, boom boom, excuse me, about to something new.
Something new. Something... unknown. Something foreign, raw, scary. Boom boom. Boom boom. Something I am a virgin in. I am a virgin of. Something virginal. Boom boom. Boom boom...
SOUL: 'Beginner's mind.'
BRAIN: First day in school!
HEART: Yes, sort of. Like that. Like a job interview. Or the first time having sex. Or the first time eating something new. First time doing... something. Anything.
BRAIN: Studies have shown higher rates of palpitations in monumental events. The nervous system is doing its job.
SOUL: 'It's normal' Brain means to say... but then again what's NORMAL?
HEART: Boom boom. Boom boom. Normal, sure. Maybe... but - boom boom - how do I make it STOP? I am so nervous I may just pop out BOOM BOOM and EXPLODE!!!
SOUL: Do you know 'nervous' and 'excited' are actually the same thing? They're both just energy.
BRAIN: That is a valid point, though I would phrase the hypothesis differently.
HEART: Oh. huh. So I could just be... excited then? Boom boom?
SOUL: Excited, nervous, who cares? They're all the same! You are BEATING and alive and that's they only thing that we all care about!
BRAIN: On that we agree.
HEART: Well when you two agree, I... find myself suddenly... more calm. Boom. more relaxed. Boom. Grounded, ready, focused to tackle that new something with all my might!
In April 2020, while experiencing her first ever global pandemic, Tamar Pelzig pledged to write something every day, even if it's only a word, so she welcomed to the world a daily blog to keep her creative writing wheels rolling.
Header Art: Daniel Landerman