Milestone

I've been very much into celebrating my birthday since as long as I can remember. 
It's my family tradition to celebrate the morning of a birthday together, huddled around a breakfast table with gifts and a festive breakfast. I've tortured a few boyfriends with my miserable sour face when my birthday expectations were unfulfilled, and I have also considered some birthdays the absolute best days of my life. I've marked down round dates for different occasions, put symbolic attention into milestones in my life and I have even quit a job simply because it hit a five year mark. So birthdays and milestones have been a part of my life for some time now... and today is no different. 
Today is my baby blog's HALF BIRTHDAY. 

Yup. 
I have written in this blog every day for the last six months!
Sometimes I spend five minutes on it, and some days I spend hours, but every day I manage to write something here. Some of it is writing I am very proud of, and other posts are anything but, but overall my goal of taking-down my perfectionism is being reached every single day through this random endeavor I started back in the 26th of April. And the daily consistency has made my writing, and my relationship to my writing a whole lot healthier and enjoyable.

SIX months.
I must celebrate in some way.
Why? Because this is fu**ing hard people!!!?!! Maintaining, caring, and giving a sh*t about a daily blog takes every ounce of my capacity to feel and to express. And this intense year has sometimes made me not want to feel a goddamn thing. The horrors of the news and global terror have made me want to escape my mind and my heart and be in complete disassociation more than once. But while it sounds fun - writing in the state of disassociation doesn't amount to much, if anything at all. 

So, following Nike in true fashion -  I just did it.
Every day that was easy, and in the days that it was simply NOT.
I sat in the discomfort of confronting myself long enough for something creative to grow on the page. Or on my Macbook air's screen, to be more accurate... I let my imagination go and my heart expand. And I can now congratulate myself for the willingness and the consistency. 
In fact, I will do more then just congratulate myself. I will bake a cake! I will make a wish! I will share the news! I will celebrate with a glass of wine! I will celebrate my win because unlike a birthday - that I had absolutely nothing to do with but being BORN - this (half) birthday is all about celebrating an actual action I took, and endeavor I followed through with, and six months worth of fears that I faced. 

So let me just say...: A VERY HAPPY HALF BIRTHDAY TO YOU, DEAR BLOG!