If you've read my 'Question Of Belonging' part 1 through 4, then you must know by now that I have a Mermaid Complex: All through my life I've been a fish out of water: Always seeking to belong and yet never belonging.
Sometimes I am happy mermaid, treading through life with a skip in my step as an individual. I live in the western world after all - it is the mecca of the religion of the individual, and I travel in between worlds and feel free to go and leave as I please. Quite advantageous for an actor, I might add.
Other times, I am a sour mermaid - resisting my fish tail and longing to walk on the ground like my fellow humans. Wanting to belong so deeply, and not knowing how to do that whatsoever. It seems like I missed the day in school when 'Belonging' was taught. Or I didn't get the manual on how to operate my fish tail on the ground when I was pulled out of the water.
Happy or sad - I am always a mermaid, it seems.
One year, I even dressed up as a mermaid in Purim (Like Halloween, but less scary and more Jewish). I belonged in that costume. Yes, to that costume - I did belong.
I recently met another mermaid, like me. And it got me thinking: How many of us are out there??? Walking with our fish tail as if we are the only ones?
This is a call to mermaids:
Our fish tail perspective have taught us a lot about the world we're living in. Time to wear it with pride and march with our head high and our tail long. We belong to the non-belonging. We belong to where the F we want to be. We belong to our mermaid-selves.
In April 2020, while experiencing her first ever global pandemic, Tamar Pelzig pledged to write something every day, even if it's only a word, so she welcomed to the world a daily blog to keep her creative writing wheels rolling.
Header Art: Daniel Landerman