You are full today.
Today - you are full.
I open you every day, or at least I TRY to, but not every day you show up beaming out of my chest as if you were expanded into a ten feet tall balloon. Not every day you are filled with LOVE so unconditional and tender. Not every day you are full like this and not an inch of you is broken.
Not every day.
You've been broken before, dear Heart, so days like this one are especially special.
When you were broken, you felt so fragile and small. I'd say you even felt hollow and your beat was faint, as if it was barely there.
I know you will be broken again, dear Heart.
I know it's just part of the human experience, and after all - here I am - a human, experiencing.
But today, oh boy, today you showed me that your size is infinite, that your beat is louder than any words, that your touch is warm and comforting.
Oh how I wish you'd stay full forever, my dear heart... How I wish.
But I know.
I know nothing is forever, even you.
Because ends, ends are part of the human experience, and after all... I am merely a human, experiencing.
Forever your opener,
In April 2020, while experiencing her first ever global pandemic, Tamar Pelzig pledged to write something every day, even if it's only a word, so she welcomed to the world a daily blog to keep her creative writing wheels rolling.
Header Art: Daniel Landerman