But the unknown time stamp on this Covid-19 reality we're living, is what challenges me most.
My life, in some ways, is simply on hold right now. And that is incredibly uncomfortable to me. (Yes, I know I should be a million times grateful for the privilege of experiencing this horrible time merely as 'hold.') The illusion of time, is the one I'm trying to hold on to the most these days. Perhaps it's because I fear my own decay. Perhaps it's because I fear the loss of my loved ones. Perhaps it's because I always feel like time is running away from me, and there is so much to do still... Perhaps it's the lesson of patience that I have yet to learn. Perhaps it's an excuse, a distraction that keeps me from being 'in the moment' doing whatever the fuck I want to on any given moment, because what's the point of anything else!? Perhaps it's an inner voice, my personal drive that pushes me forward to fulfill more area in my potential. Perhaps it's because it's not an illusion at all... time is one of our only concepts that is NOT a made-up human story. (...Or is it?!) Who knows? Not I, that's for sure. My relationship with TIME, is an enigma. A mysterious riddle I haven't yet solved. A love & hate saga that is packed with confusion. A party that I seem to always be LATE to. Oh, time. What art thou?
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AuthorIn April 2020, while experiencing her first ever global pandemic, Tamar Pelzig pledged to write something every day, even if it's only a word, so she welcomed to the world a daily blog to keep her creative writing wheels rolling. Categories
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