SOUL: What's going on, hun? You look a bit flushed.
HEART: Yeah? I don't know. I just have this feeling.
BRAIN: A feeling is an emotional state.
SOUL: No kidding, genius. So, feeling, huh? Is this a feeling that you feel deep in your stomach, in the guts?
HEART: No, it's a feeling I feel deep in...well... the heart.
BRAIN: Feeling can also be described as a belief.
SOUL: An intuitive belief, perhaps.
HEART: No, no... it's not that. It's a feeling that I cannot quite articulate. It feels like I am being punched repeatedly. Over and over again. Nothing seems to stop it. It's painful, but in some ways I have also gotten used to it. I've normalized it. Accepted it. So it makes it... not that bad... and yet, it's always there...
BRAIN: Dread? Resignation? Sorrow?
HEART: No, not quite...
SOUL: Perhaps it's a fusion of feelings. A merge of sensations...
HEART: It's a feeling I've never felt before. How can I possibly articulate a feeling I've never felt before? It's like describing a color that doesn't exist, or cooking without tasting or smelling. Something is lost, is missing. That's it! 'Something's missing.' That's the feeling. That something is missing all the time. What do you call the feeling that 'something is missing?'
BRAIN: I think you are referring to depression.
SOUL: No, no, no... she is talking about faith. 'I once was lost and now I'm found. I was blind but now I see.' This is why people turn to faith, sugar. To fill the void of what's missing.
HEART: But does it ever fill the void?
SOUL: To some, yes. To others, no and it perhaps never will. We are all dealing with the same challenge, sugar: we are experiencing what it's like to be human. And that includes all feelings. Even the ones that we don't quite know how to articulate well.
In April 2020, while experiencing her first ever global pandemic, Tamar Pelzig pledged to write something every day, even if it's only a word, so she welcomed to the world a daily blog to keep her creative writing wheels rolling.
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