A-Ha!

Have you ever had a mind-blowing earth-shattering A-ha! moment that came randomly without a poetic sunset or a classical tune greeting its arrival? Have you had a moment so grand - yet in a moment so random and so... seemingly unimportant?

Today, I was sitting on the couch drinking my celery juice (yes I love it, yes it's gross, and yes it's trendy) like any other day. Still in my pajama with a more-than-healthy amount of cat hair on it. The window was slightly open but the air was still. Not cold, not warm, not EVENTFUL in any way. An ordinary moment in an ordinary day. And just then... my A-ha! moment revealed itself like a newborn uttering her first cry: After years and years and YEARS of pondering - I had finally realized what I do in my life.

And by that... I mean: the purpose, the why, the mission, the story behind the 'I'm an actor!' 'I'm a writer!' 'I'm an engineer!' 'I'm a mother!' 'I'm a pilot!' To me, our work and identity is much deeper than the labels of the jobs we do or positions we take. 

So if I had primed you effectively you may be a bit curious right now... wondering - 'What is it she does!? She's already said two blog posts ago that she does empathy... so what A-ha! moment does she have NOW?'

Well, I'd say that Empathy is my tool and I'd say the number one tool. It's the HOW I do what I do. But what is it that I DO? Beyond the 'I'm a storyteller.' 
What is the WHAT?!
What ties my acting, my writing, my jewelry creation, my voice work, this very blog, my constant obsession with creativity and storytelling...  is that- 

I strive to make my limiting beliefs - my superpowers.

A-Ha!

Full disclosure: I don't always do it well. Sometimes my limiting beliefs shut me down. Sometimes that happens on this very blog...
But I strive to turn my limiting beliefs into superpowers in each and everything that I do:
*I have tapped into my irrational fear of spiders with my jewelry line by creating spider webs looking creations. In a sense-  putting myself in the spider's shoes in my work. 
*I have worked tirelessly on reducing my foreign accent since moving to the US - and now I have a career as a voice actor portraying the AMERICAN versions of foreign characters in some of the most most international TV shows of our time. 
*Growing up in an environment where I felt like I didn't belong and was invisible as the only secular in an environment of extremely religious groups  - has inspired me to tap into many other characters and worlds and put myself in the spotlight as an actor and storyteller. I made my story of 'not belonging' - a storyteller's superpower.  

Why the A-ha! moment chose to arrive today out of all days is beyond me. 
But the random timing of this mind-blowing thought (MY mind was blown, you are welcome to brush it away and roll your eyes - an A-ha! is an A-ha! in the eyes of the experiencer...) adds to the magic of its discovery for me.
It was unexpected. It was smooth to show. It was unannounced and uncalled. 
Once again... I learned that the most special moments in life are the seemingly mundane ones.
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A-ha!