A Gap

There is a gap. 
A gap between my dreams of yesterday and my dreams of tomorrow. 
A gap between who I used to be and who I am turning into. 
A gap between where I know I should go and where I am. 
There is a gap. A bridge. A void. A tear. And with the years, it both becomes smaller and smaller and it both distances away. 
If only I could throw away the gap. Toss it far and away. Be done with it. Let it loose. If only... Then I could merge who I am with who I long to be, and my work will be where I want it to be, and my dreams of tomorrow finally will becomes the waking days of TODAY. 
There is a gap. 
A never shrinking gap. An always growing gap. A frickin' frustrating gap. And I am ruled by it and lead by it, following some grandiose illusion that it will somehow go away.
But there is a gap. And I am in the gap. In all my ever changing glory.
I don't watch the tides, or get swept away by the tides. I AM the tides. 
There is a gap and she is I.
There is a gap and she is NOW.
​There is a gap and she isn't going ANYWHERE.